to me, i'm really suffering from depression i don't care if you think i'm not suffering from anything slited my wrist, my friends all thought i was going to die imagine, if i wanted to die? wouldn't i just rather slit my neck? total till now, cut myself twice first one was a few mm deep, but the second one was definely deeper shit, now it's swollen childish? lame? i don't care what you think people told me not to do all this things some said to me, doesn't that hurt? what i'm feeling now, is much more worst than the pain on my wrist the pain on my wrist doesn't hurt much, my feelings for what i have now, hurts more deeply sometimes i just didn't know what i'm doing at times anyways, faizal told my sister today during her F&N lesson, that he had already passed the phone to rafeek when my sister told me, i was like what the fuck? why did you want to give him? realised that there's no chance of getting my phone back i would have to wait for 10 weeks which is basically until the first few weeks of july think about it, i'm desperate for my handphone, which only a day passed imagine 70 days, what am i going to do? imagine over my holidays without my handphone i can't live without it and yet many people asked me why didn't i reply their sms are you guys fucking blind? it's confiscated alright? don't remind me i know i'm in the wrong where's your heart? i know it's too late to change everything but all i can say is that my views for you had changed dramatically today, me and lydiana were laughing seriously she can make me laugh laugh till my tears drop won't tell you what i'm laughing cause i wouldn't know who's reading this pile of shit mid-year is on friday, this friday and i'm so totally unprepared. just want you guys to know that i only cut myself when i'm very depressed linda told me not to cut, if the teachers saw my hand, they would bring me for counselling wouldn't want to give up my recess time just to talk to someone she talked to me before, but it wasn't the time i wanted that's i refused to talk to her. people said that he likes her, i don't care who he likes, but i will just like him regardless of him liking others anot after seeing what had happened in maple just now i knew how he felt when a guy told me he wanted to marry me but seriously thou, i don't care about getting married or not it's just a game, and i could sense jealousy should i go on like this or should i just give up? now, math really is a gone case subject for me if i want to go polytechnic or junior college my math must do well everything depend on math why can't i just change my mindset? just for this time i would really want things to work out i really have to do well for this mid-year or my life would totally be ruined. my future, my possesion, my freedom last time she used to talk to me because i told her my problems in sms now, i realised that you must never trust a teacher never ever trust them you may never know what they will do to you just like what she did to me felt disappointed, although i know it's my fault no reason hating you, but i just want to don't see the point in talking to you, don't see the point in smiling at you you showed me what you're capable of and i'm not proud of it don't see any reason to talk to you anymore, unless i'm being forced to my scar is going up, up to my veins fuck everything i have in life nothing's ever good enough plain fucked up
Grace Lee. 18 this year. Currently studying in Commonwealth Secondary School. I love my CCA Girl Guides. In class 1/7, 2/7, 3/6, 4/6 5/1.
27th November is my special day. Black freak. I respect all kinds of people, regardless of race or religion. Tend to get worked up whenever I hear the sound of keys ting-a-ling.
Dislike peanut butter or anything that has the word 'nut' in it. Gets high easily. Choose to vent my anger on my blog.
a new hand phone,
more clothes,
crumpler bag,
advance in my allowance,
helix piercing,
tragus piercing,
grow taller,
belt with a guitar buckle,
laptop,
do well in my studies,
new i-pod (black colour),
nike watch,
nike bag,
green/ white/ grey/ black skinny jeans,
pass O level, go poly,
more piercings,
film director,
a camera,
a new camera,
PSP,
HIM