so sad, he didn't come to school today, said he had flu and sore throat! anyways hope you get well soon alright? been feeling so weird today, no seriously i kept thinking of that situation back then, and began to think about it sometimes just want to question myself, did i made the right choice at all? what made me landed in this state right now? changes happened and we could only learn to accept and not make any comments at all stupid spot check today, didn't know got spot check at all, and guess what? i wore that stupid ankle length socks to school, and it gave me a big BIG shock thought i could get away with it when mrs yeo checked my socks but then ms ridz told us to stand in a straight line to spot check us one by one? she walked infront of me, looked at my nails, my earrings, and looked down and told me one sentence," i don't like your socks." i was like, what the hell? as if i like yours oh i get it, your not even wearing one! so just got one demerit point, what's the big deal? not as if i never get a demerit point before like that? who cares about it anyways? realised that our new OM is like of freaking me out too, even thou he looks quite friendly? i guess so, we were standing outside our class, then he suddenly came and talked to us it freaks me out, especially when he laughed, that deep deep voice, makes my hair stand cca time, 2 people came and gave us a talk on, vitameal, forgotten already didn't bother about it too much, think i made a big fool out of myself too anyways we thought the secondary 1s marching, some were good, some were, yes bad don't want to name people out here, eyes are everywhere, even you i guess i was really surprised at this four girl's attitude, really made me felt so touched we wanted to give them water break, they didn't want to go for it we wanted to let them sit down, but none of them wanted to sit on the floor their attitudes were quite good and they mostly listens to us! and me! YAY! and then adeline suddenly told them alot of things, well sometimes i added in too these talks really made me felt so, unexplainable i guess, can you guys feel it? after all this months and days made me feel so guilty of doing it in the first place i really don't get what it's thinking sometimes, can be quite forceful thou when i heard that news, i was suddenly being left speechless at one side, what was i thinking at times? why couldn't i just sit down there and wait? will i be waiting for the rest of my life? or is it just a wishful thinking? you're damn screwed up you know, screw you! hope you will regret for the rest of your life your face really irks me, feel like giving you one tight slap, make sure you lose 10kg oh yes, my stupid bills came yesterday! WHAT THE HELL?! i'm not prepared for a reason! it's like i'm doing my homework and just blasting my ipod away when my dad stepped into this house, the first sentence echoed through the air here is all this LONG LONG LONG 'conversation' he told me,
"one person's bills still okay, the other one over by alot, what the f*ck? i really feel like giving you one tight slap, the more i say angerier i get, why do you want to waste your money on starhub? it's not that i cannot afford the money, it's just that i feel that it's so stupid to let them earn your money like that, it's not worth it at all. *stares at me* am i talking to the wall? can reply me anot? OI! *thinks hardly* for example, total you smsed roughly about 900 messages a month, just imagine, *counting* ONE DAY YOU MESSAGED ABOUT 30 MESSAGES?! you want to break singapore's record of smsing the most is it? 30 sms? i really can't believe that you can even message that much, what are you trying to show us? that you have alot of free time to message other people? don't tell me you message people like this," hello, how are you doing?" or when people ask you how are you feeling, you will reply them," yes i'm fine, thank you" don't came and tell me all this nonsense? so what if others have 1000 free smses whereas you only got 360 free smses, are you trying to tell me that when my friends are staying in a bungalow, means that our family got to stay in a bungalow too? okay think that's roughly what he said to me, and ONLY me! what the hell? it's like he kept screaming the same thing over and over again, like a broken radio he also said a bunch of shit to me too, makes me want to give him one tight slap too trying to forget, is it really so hard to do that kind of simple things too? am i really going too hard on it? it's really lagging back behind me alot i;m really sorry for pullling you back behind, knew i shouldn't have done it at all now you're lacking behind because of me, seriously i didn't mean to do it well that does it, i'm just going to try till the end, i won't let you down anymore don't have that mood anymore, guess smiling just isn't what i want to do now... waiting and waiting, what's going on here?
Grace Lee. 18 this year. Currently studying in Commonwealth Secondary School. I love my CCA Girl Guides. In class 1/7, 2/7, 3/6, 4/6 5/1.
27th November is my special day. Black freak. I respect all kinds of people, regardless of race or religion. Tend to get worked up whenever I hear the sound of keys ting-a-ling.
Dislike peanut butter or anything that has the word 'nut' in it. Gets high easily. Choose to vent my anger on my blog.
a new hand phone,
more clothes,
crumpler bag,
advance in my allowance,
helix piercing,
tragus piercing,
grow taller,
belt with a guitar buckle,
laptop,
do well in my studies,
new i-pod (black colour),
nike watch,
nike bag,
green/ white/ grey/ black skinny jeans,
pass O level, go poly,
more piercings,
film director,
a camera,
a new camera,
PSP,
HIM