what should i do now? every word i said make things get even worser how i wish i could just crawl up to a corner and just hear myself speak for once where do i even stand at this very point of time? sometimes i just cannot understand you what are you thinking of? does that really matters to me anymore? just leave bad impression for people, there's nothing good about me at all, what's wrong really don't have any mood now, damn freaking stressed out now, DEPRESSION! DEPRESSION! i can feel you coming so close to me now, i can sense your not leaving so many things left to do, just want to cry it out right now, will you be there for me?
this may be one of my shortest post this month, seriously it will be one of the shortest who cares what i write? when it has to do with you, you start to get overreacted what's there to overreact? should i be blamed for all this troubles you have now, HELL NO so ridiculous at times, i shall not be intimidate by you any longer, i've had enough you said your piece now leave, vanish from my sight and get out of my mind i won't think about you no more, the more i think, things will get out of hand will i also be looking for one now? i'm constantly waiting, not for you, but i wanted chance how should i be facing you tomorrow? or even later on, where's the pride gone? i don't see any humours in my sentences, i don't see why i should be happy for who can tell me what should i do? why am i so stuck up right now, SCREW YOU PEOPLE!
why am i even doing all this sort of things now, would people think i'm crazy? who's got the point, who's making all this up? i don't see any point no more do what you want from now on, because i really can't be bothered by you anymore i've sacrifaced too much, i've done too much for you, do you find it offensive too? wonder how am i really going to face you later onwards, maybe i should put my head down and pretended all this things never happened before, move on with life start things afresh, i want to be a changed person from now, where's the old me? the old me used to be a patient person, but now, i just find it so useless, not worth it i used to think it was so special in so many ways, but now i found out the truth now it's just like a torned up image, i've refused to put it back together again i just don't see no point in it, used to think it would heal back by itself thou...
she smsed me today, surprised how she got my number when i didn't give it to her asked me how i felt, i just told her i feel so tired of living, just leave me alone and then she suddenly called me, scared the bloody hell out of me, who cares? i refused to pick up her phone, and then just told her i was busy doing something else why don't i just get straight with her to the point? why do i even worry so much? will i worry that she may tell him about what i was going to tell her? not trustworthy it cannot be shown, no adults should know about all this problems i'm encountering who gives a damn right? the more i talk to her the more i wanted to cry it out please don't call or sms me, i'm sick of all those "talkings" thou i admit your nice does all that talkings made me change my views for you again? why didn't i think of that...
haven't signed my progress report, will i even resort to forging my parent's signature? i'm still thinking, i really don't want to bring my parents down nor disappoint them what should i do now, time seem so precious to me right now, it passes so quickly why didn't i learn to appreciate all those i had in the past, now it's all taken away from me apparently i guess you're better off with me, will the past be able to be erased what am i aiming for right now, should i listen to my dearest for advices right now? everything's in such a mess right now, i can't clear all this away right now! jealousy is not part of me, why should i be jealous just because you have all this things i shall not procrastinate this any further, i think i've made up my mind, it's not important nothing's important to me now, i need to settle all this problems one by one don't have any mood to talk further, leave me alone you idiots shit you all
Grace Lee. 18 this year. Currently studying in Commonwealth Secondary School. I love my CCA Girl Guides. In class 1/7, 2/7, 3/6, 4/6 5/1.
27th November is my special day. Black freak. I respect all kinds of people, regardless of race or religion. Tend to get worked up whenever I hear the sound of keys ting-a-ling.
Dislike peanut butter or anything that has the word 'nut' in it. Gets high easily. Choose to vent my anger on my blog.
a new hand phone,
more clothes,
crumpler bag,
advance in my allowance,
helix piercing,
tragus piercing,
grow taller,
belt with a guitar buckle,
laptop,
do well in my studies,
new i-pod (black colour),
nike watch,
nike bag,
green/ white/ grey/ black skinny jeans,
pass O level, go poly,
more piercings,
film director,
a camera,
a new camera,
PSP,
HIM