Oh well, since i still have some time to blog. Shit man i broke my promise saying that i'm not going to blog. So anyways, who cares whether i do or do not blog right? But there's this frustration in me is telling me that i need to vent my anger all out here! Not always anger, but there's this confusion which lingers around in my mind. Seriously there is, but sometimes i just don't know what to say. When things go terribly wrong, there's always someone cheering me up, and it's not the person i had in mind. Where were you when i needed you? Maybe it's just gone and it's never coming back, i should just face the fact once and for all.
So anyways, nothing is worth thinking now, why should i even bother? Your just not worth it anymore, i'll be much happier off with my current status now. Something weird happened yesterday, i was really shocked at what she did. What did you do that for? F*cking hell, no one looks at me in that way you know? What makes you think your the person who can do that to me? Screw you! Have so many comments on people which i had interacted this few days. Also some are just plain waste of time, realised that i shouldn't have gone through all this trouble just for you. Come to think of it, i wished i hadn't done it in the past. Oh how much i really do regretted it now? Not the time to gloat about it now, so just buzz off and leave me alone.
Heard a lot of stuffs about you, hope that won't influence my life. Be gone for now, so seriously i'm expecting the feeling i shouldn't have now. I don't want to have this feeling and i was never expecting this feeling to come back to me. But how do i get rid of it? Seriously i've gone through a lot of trouble doing all those sort of things. I don't want the outcome to be the same anymore, maybe i should just quieten down and not do anything else more. And then, found out quite a few more other things, is he really the one for me? Sometimes it just makes me wonder a lot. Anyways weird thing happened, yingzhen, puifun, my sister and i were playing badminton using table-tennis racquets during pe. And then this secondary 1 girl walked past us and she smiled to me and said hi. So i just waved back and said hi, weird, who's she?
Sorry if i didn't reply your messages this few days, something hard came down on me. But i will try to get to you as soon as possible, i don't want my bills to over shot! Anyways combined humanities' coming up tomorrow, after that is additional mathematics. Feel so damn scared for my additional mathematics, what am i going to do about it? I don't want to fail this paper! Or else i would need to re-take it again, if i fail after the re-take, i would need to drop this subject. Which is obviously a strictly no-no for me, my dad would kill me for sure. I can't afford to drop any subjects at all, even thou i was thinking of dropping art. Well, i chose to be in art and now i'm regretting it now? Maybe i should try and 'fall' in love with art? Come to think of it, i haven't started on my EOYE art! What the f*ck, maybe i should start on it now, how should i even start on my first page?
So i shall let this matter rest, i don't want to investigate any further. Do what you think it's right and i'm sure i will do the same too. Went to look for my chinese teacher and wanted to ask her about our chinese marks. She went in the teacher's room and we waited outside. When she came out with our scores for paper 1? I don't know, and i seriously couldn't read her hand-writing at all! But i heard that i passed? But what i saw is that i failed? Goodness, maybe i shouldn't try to know my marks after all, i don't want to be disappointed at the outcome! The truth should be best well kept under, i guess. People told me not to choose you for a reason, sometimes i find that it's quite true sometimes. Should i even heed for advices at this very stage? But you make it seemed like what i had in mind. But on the outside, you make it seem like you don't want the truth to be known and kept denying to me. So seriously i would have to endure for another week, and i won't be blogging anymore.
I don't want to choose i don't want to choose!!
having some type of feeling..
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