Just heard from my parents that i won't be able to use the computer like this after they've returned from their holiday in KL. And i was like, they would be going there on the 22th, and will be back on the 24th. Don't know whether it's morning or afternoon, but i got a feeling that they would be back late morning. Who cares anyways? I got two days of freedom, and i should really make use of that before school re-opens. But anyways, this few days or weather is really bad! It's been raining non-stop for the past few days, want to go out also half no mood already. Oh well, things like this are aren't unpredictable. Aren't they?
Anyways just want to blog something about yesterday. Was supposed to meet terence at the mrt station, can't wait too. And then i saw him and shaun, both of them were quite funny. So we went to buy tickets for that movie, the holiday. The show can basically make you cry and laugh, overrall it's quite a nice show! When during the show, i don't know why i kept laughing something, guess terence and shaun were quite funny at times. So after that went to carrefour and i saw ode! We went to buy christmas presents after that, oh no! I think i know what i want to give, but i don't know whether they'll like it a not. But it's the thought that counts right? So after that went to plaza singapura to shop some more. Thanks to terence, he found those cards for me. So after bringing me to the mrt station, which i met my sister and quanyuan later, terence went back to meet shaun. Had a fun day anyways.
Guess i'm stuck at home today, if not i'll audition till my fingers break. Cannot be addicted to this type of games anymore! School's re-opening soon, got to find something else to distract me. Realised that i haven't even started doing my homework yet, and i was like, what the? I don't know which theme to choose for my art yet, someone help me! I don't know i don't know i don't know! Kind of lazy to think now, maybe i'll start preparing for my christmas presents a bit later on. Not in a mood to do stuffs, after seeing all this stuffs that has happened to me. I shall avoid you, stop bothering me anymore! But somehow, some part of me still goes to you. I wanted to get straight to the point, but i just can't bring myself to it. What would happen again? Imagine if things would to be like the past, it's torture let me tell you. I've let it go once, maybe it's time again..
I can't show pain long for the days when i am free to feel. Don't want to lose everything, just want to feel again. My heart would burst from you, if that would make things right again. I don't feel anything on the outside. The pain you bring, starting over doesn't look so bad this time. I am not empty inside thou i longed to make this right. Emotions still touch me, still i can't feel a thing. Like ghosts that melt into fog, and leave me cold. Only shadows and impressions are left for me to hold. My heart would burst for you if that would make you whole. I am not empty inside though i longed to make this right. This is my indictment of what you hold, invoke the name and watch the masses turn on us.
Finally i finished ASG's present, had been writing the whole afternoon. Think my fingers are going to break, joking. I wouldn't mind writing all those for you guys, hope you all would be so touched by what i've wrote. I've been through a lot of thinking before i write all those stuffs, anyways hope you all like it thou. If you don't get what i mean by what i've written, i can understand. I don't want others to know anyways. I won't regret by what i'm going to do, and that's final. I don't want other people to barge in my way and tell me this is wrong or what. I've regretted too much in the past, and i wished all these has never happened before. The time had come to me in an eccentric way, i'm not going to give in your ways. Sometimes i really had given up hope and i told myself thousands of times i'm not letting all these lingers around my head. It's funny how things ended up in a way where others wouldn't accept this kind of behaviour. I guess the this world can be unpredictable..
It's a cold world out there, no one is able to fend you. Help unwanted, i can do this on my own. Until i found myself wounded, sadness fills, for i know i've failed. When you came, things started to get better for no apparent reason.. i realised my mistakes from the start
Grace Lee. 18 this year. Currently studying in Commonwealth Secondary School. I love my CCA Girl Guides. In class 1/7, 2/7, 3/6, 4/6 5/1.
27th November is my special day. Black freak. I respect all kinds of people, regardless of race or religion. Tend to get worked up whenever I hear the sound of keys ting-a-ling.
Dislike peanut butter or anything that has the word 'nut' in it. Gets high easily. Choose to vent my anger on my blog.
a new hand phone,
more clothes,
crumpler bag,
advance in my allowance,
helix piercing,
tragus piercing,
grow taller,
belt with a guitar buckle,
laptop,
do well in my studies,
new i-pod (black colour),
nike watch,
nike bag,
green/ white/ grey/ black skinny jeans,
pass O level, go poly,
more piercings,
film director,
a camera,
a new camera,
PSP,
HIM