You shouldn't hang on, it's already gone.

Monday, December 25, 2006

School's re-opening in about a week's time. Feel kind of excited, but i just don't know why. Maybe i ought to be mentally prepared that i'm going to get scolded by my teachers, cause i never do my homework? Excited cause i can see my friends again? By the way i miss them a lot! Still haven't bought some textbooks yet, maybe i should start flipping through my textbooks which i've already bought. Saw the elementary mathematics textbook, and i was stunned by it. I'll pray to god, make sure i can really do well in 2007 for every subjects. Anyways i shall give in my hundred and one percent, can't afford to have any distractions i guess and put in effort too.

So anyways, my parent's coming back home today. Aww, freedom is coming to an end, maybe i can't be blogging or playing audition too often. So i guess i'll blog my hearts out i guess? Nobody reads this crap anyways, even if you read it. I doubt you'll understand me, cause i don't understand myself. That makes you not understand me, you understand? Can't believe i over slept yesterday morning, was supposed to go to my grandma's house. And then both my sister and i over slept, so we're woken abruptly by those phone calls. Both of us were so beat out already, so we rushed and rushed. So reached my grandma's house and i ate my lunch quickly. That taxi which took us to CHC made me feel so nauseous! Plus we're sitting at the opposite direction, and singapore expo is quite far from my grandma's house. Trust me you won't like the feeling. So reached there, and realised that place is huge!

Watched a skit, it's funny and touching. And then we were handed a candle, and everyone's candle were lighted up. Man! The view's great! So after that went back to my grandma's house in the same taxi, which made me feel nauseous. I felt nauseous twice! I guess the purpose of us staying at her house is because my sister wanted to learn how to bake muffins. Well it turned out quite okay, well at least it's much more better. Went home after that, and went online till three in the morning. I guess i should look no further anymore. So after that i guessed we over slept again today! Seriously i regretted going online till three in the morning! So we rushed and rushed and rushed. The same procedure, and joelle's parents fetched us, thanks a lot! So went to joelle's church today, the church's called lighthouse evangelism. Not sure if i got the spelling right, but anyways, i realised something about that place. That place's kind of high class, the layout and all those.

So we watched a skit, basically it's quite nice. And touching too, made me cried, hope nobody noticed me. Lengkiat, my sister and i saw something, and it scared the hell out of us. Well, that's all i can say, don't really want to elaborate that much. After that we went to the nearby stalls to buy some fruits, don't worry, we don't have constipation. Joking, we bought some fruits for linda's mum. Cause she's in the hospital now, hope she gets well soon! But before we went to the hospital, joelle's parents brought us to great world city for lunch. The place which they brought us for lunch is so nice! And the food there was very expensive, anyways, just want to thank joelle's parents. Thanks for the lift and the lunch! After leaving the hospital, lengkiat, joelle, linda, my sister and i went to walk around orchard. Walked around for quite some time, there's one particular shopping centre. But i've forgotten the name of the shopping mall, the things there were exceptionally expensive.

We looked around and i still find one part quite amusing. I used the camcorder and aimed it at they all. And the image appeared at the wide screen television, where those passerbys would be able to see it. Don't really know how to describe it, but it's really damn funny during that time. After that we went to 77th street, suddenly my sister and joelle said that they wanted to pierce their ear. And i was like,"are you kidding? Don't bluff me!" Practically both our parents her parents don't allow us to have a second earhole, but who cares? We went to pierce it anyways. So now my left ear has got two earholes and my right ear has got one. And i was the first to pierce it! That lady used the gun and shot it, and then joelle asked whether it's pain a not. That lady said nodded her head, what the! Of course it's pain for me, she didn't even put enough liquid which make my ear numb at all! But i can stand the pain anyways, right now, i have to hide my second earhole from my parents.

Walked around again, and linda's sister called saying that she's got to go back to the hospital. So we said bye to her and we went to macdonalds. We chatted there and ate our dinner too, talked about the past and many more. Just want to say that orchard is flooded with people! I guess that's about it. These few days is been a roller coaster ride for me, my mood's filled with ups and downs. At times, i don't know why i had to lose my cool so easily. Somewhere between delusion and denial, it'll drown in your own sympathy. Profound, at least you thought so at the time. The hands that feed intent, choke the purpose of this time. Take all that you can give, and i will make it mine. Even a fool can see through that. Reach for the promise, hold back the tears down on the inside with nothing left to fear. Manipulating circumstance or a judgment stigmatized?

I've thought about it, and i soon realised that the answer is just right before me. Feel the air as two wills collide. Look towards the sky, a place where nobody goes and a place that nobody knows. These nights are filled with heartache and these nights are filled with an empty glass. Just turn us up and step aside, we know you very well. We know what dwells down deep inside, now watch them disappear as the truth will begin right here. For years you've been wandering in dismay, hoping to find what you want by chance. Loathe or love it, i really don't seem to care about what you think anymore. I wasn't trying to make it different nor helping anyone out. Silence replaces your once changing faces, wretched and reckless, a sorrow now endless. Take a look and you will see i did what was best, now there's nothing left to show. The truth unfolds, break the silence..

Merry christmas by the way. And remember, christmas is to celebrate the birth of jesus christ! Thank you for sacrifacing for us, forgive me for the sins i've done. Bless all those peple who are around me and myself. Amen! Guess this week, i'm packed! I'm having cca camp on thursday till friday, guess that's the major happening in this week. Having girl guides camp, well don't know about that. Cause someone isn't really interested to help in it, and doesn't really take the initiative to do things around here. Ends up getting all the credit, what kind of people do they have these days? From now on, i got to keep my hands away from it..
~~it can't be that addicted~~

11:34 PM