Been quite confused these few days, also don't know what am i thinking about. Strange feelings passing by me, and i seriously don't know why am i feeling like that. So, i've been having some difficulties with settling down in my class. The competition's fierce, and i'm considered one of the bottom few. Let's just hope for the best i guess, nevertheless i'll pray to god. I believe that you can change my life, amen. Plus i'm having quite a rough time with waking up in the morning, most percentage of the people aren't morning people you know?
I guess one of my church friend, joyce tan, had been helping me out these few days. And i just want to say a big thanks to you. Thanks a lot! Thanks for the advices, the morning call and everything. I appreciate it, god bless! It's weird how people think of you like that, where's all those love and concern? Don't they exist anymore? And why am i feeling like that all of a sudden? Keep looking over your shoulder, horrors of self, must be revealed to achieve contrition. Telling my pain, bearing my soul to the world. Here i am, venting on this page, flawed and insecure no more. Here i am coming clean with myself, knowing that this time would come. Here i am, like a thousand voices, i know i'm not the only one. A new life begins, obliterate what makes us weak. Destroy everything, decimate what threatens me and blocks my way.
Found out that miss ruth ng is really, well i don't know how to describe her. But something really funny happened during art lesson today. She kept asking us the same question over and over again,"are you smart?!" I wanted to laugh, and i really couldn't control my laughter anymore. The more times she asked, the more i wanted to laugh. It's like she's so overreacted all of a sudden and she told us that she always think smart. If not she wouldn't be so smart like now, well i seriously don't know how to describe her. And i'm really not looking forward to her lessons at all, i doubt i'll learn anything. Got tons of homework piling up, i don't know how to go on anymore! So why make this all up again? Didn't you learn your mistakes before? Failed once before and i tried to keep away from all those stuffs again, but something's bringing all back again. You shouldn't feel like that in the first place, cause nothing belongs to you in the first place.
Bonds are strengthened when they've been tested, and mended when they've been torn. So resolve, reassure and push on without fear. Ignite the flame, because only you govern what tomorrow holds. It's inside us all waiting to be awoken and it's more then words describe. This is the spark, let it burn, make it build. It will never be denied, because the right is on, until there's nothing left. I'll fight like never before. Can i turn and face myself and the knowledge of would shouldn't be? So concerned with the things i could never change. Now i must assure to never fulfill that prophecy.. i'm seriously stuck
Grace Lee. 18 this year. Currently studying in Commonwealth Secondary School. I love my CCA Girl Guides. In class 1/7, 2/7, 3/6, 4/6 5/1.
27th November is my special day. Black freak. I respect all kinds of people, regardless of race or religion. Tend to get worked up whenever I hear the sound of keys ting-a-ling.
Dislike peanut butter or anything that has the word 'nut' in it. Gets high easily. Choose to vent my anger on my blog.
a new hand phone,
more clothes,
crumpler bag,
advance in my allowance,
helix piercing,
tragus piercing,
grow taller,
belt with a guitar buckle,
laptop,
do well in my studies,
new i-pod (black colour),
nike watch,
nike bag,
green/ white/ grey/ black skinny jeans,
pass O level, go poly,
more piercings,
film director,
a camera,
a new camera,
PSP,
HIM